How to Photograph Victoria Faith

"Let's go take pictures," I say to my four-and-a-half-year old niece, handing her the ballerina-blush tutu I bought her.

She grabs it, shrugging off her school dress and pulling the new one over her bare shoulders and head. Let's go, she says, heading toward the door. "I don't want to wear shoes."

"You don't have to," I tell her.

She is out the door, barefoot. And, I am already snapping away, watching as she skips across the lawn. She leads me across the street to summer's waning flower beds and then back across the road whirling through the grass, falling to the ground.

She is oblivious to the camera as she begins to spin her tale. "I know," she says. "Pretend I am a little girl and I am lost and you are busy working and you forgot to feed me." She pouts, doing her best to look forlorn.

I snap away.

She jumps up and runs out back to the trees. "I am a fairy," she says, as she peeks through the leaves. "I am all alone in the woods. Would you live with me?"

I press the shutter button.

Before I can say anything, she picks up the fluffy pink doll bed I gave her and a stick and runs down the neglected cement path, striking a hobo's pose. "I'm running away," she says.
"Move over there in the light," I tell her, but now the stick has become a cane and she is limping down the path like an old man. She flops on the grass again and stares back at me over her shoulder.
Click. I capture that one.

She's up and running toward the back fence where the pugs are playing in the water that has pooled on the pool cover. She grabs a pine cone off the tree and throws it into their midst. "Let's make Alfie stew," she says.

Go over there by the branches, I direct. She ignores me. "Stand here," she tells me. "That's too far away for my lens," I say. She doesn't hear me.

"Stand here," she orders. "I'll tell you where to stand and when to take a picture."

She sits in the grass and spreads her skirt around her. "Now," she commands. "Okay."

"Again." She actually pauses long enough for three shots and then is up again, moving toward the shed.

"I'm lost and I'm sad," she says. "Pretend you find me sleeping." She curls up on the pink doll bed. I snap the picture.

"Move your hair out of your face," I instruct. She tosses it as she springs up marching toward the house.

"I'm hot now," she announces. "We're done."

And, that is how to photograph Victoria Faith.

Inspired

I received a call a couple of weeks ago from a former student who had taken a number of my classes. When she first came to my class she had advanced cancer. That was two years ago. When she called recently, she told me it had progressed and that her time was limited. We had started an anthology of student work compiled from the classes she had taken and never finished it. She wanted to now. I got together with her this week to do so.

She spoke about her other projects -- two books she is hoping to get published, a current and upcoming art exhibit. She showed me the art project she had completed for one of these, discussing the texture of the paper and various printing costs. She is diligently working on her web site and blog, compiling years of her photography and writing.

She looked lovely in spite of an overall frailness and swelling in her abdomen. Her hair was longer than when I had last seen her (shortly after chemo) and her eyes were crystal-clear blue. They sparkled as she chattered about her busy life.

I wanted to snap her picture to remember the day, but was hesitant to ask. When I returned home I made this sketch and wrote this poem. I sent it to her the next day and told her that I wanted to put it on my blog. "I want to share with people how you inspire me," I said. "Not because of the cancer, but because of your creativity."

She is a person fully engaged in living. She is a creative force.

When I got home I sobbed.

Then I began to create.

In small letters she edits a big life down into words and images encapsulating dreams
on a computer, on a web site, in books, in photographs
sharing with others who she is, where's she's been, that she's here
that we all are
She reminds me to live, to work, to reach, to grow
Even when she is tired, even when a breath is hard
She reaches out and reminds me
Her story is our story and our story is hers

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A Day in the Sun

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My mother snapped this photo of the pugs and I in Woodstock today. We went to pick up some magazines featuring an article I had written and decided to take a stroll around town. We had a lot of fun and I plan to post more about it tomorrow. This was the pugs and I taking a break from walking. It was very hot and the two tired quickly. After the walk we stopped by the cremee stand where Alfie devoured both her own and Waffles' icecream and Waffi whined to go in the river.

I took her down near the water where she dove right in. We met a little girl whose mom runs a doggie daycare and she told us she has her own three-year-old pug named Edward who does a variety of tricks. It's funny to find pug people almost everywhere. Alfie and Waffles really enjoyed the little girl, who in turn was enjoying the river. It was fun to watch the three interact.

Named

My friend Joan loves to have themes for her litters. In the past we have had the "Umps" -- Lady Lorelei Lump, Baroness Bonnie Bump, Dr. Poohbah Gump, and Countess Connie Crump; Heffalump and Woozle, the Magicians-- Copperfield, Gandalf, Dumbledoor, Hocus Pocus, and Merlin, etc. etc.

This litter though, I picked up little Batman, fell in love with his wolfy head and batlike ears and dubbed him Batman. The biggest boy looked like his Mommy, Griffles, so I started calling him Gryffindoor. Joan's friend, Jane, dubbed the girl Margot and suddenly we had a litter without a theme. The other two boys got called a variety of things from Slugo -- for his constant movement, to Twinkletoes -- for his little white-tipped feet to No-Name, which is self-explanatory. The other day we decided the two remaining, unnamed boys needed names. Joan started to go through her dog book of names and came up with a few she liked, so while this litter has no theme, all the puppies have names and each will have a home.

So I'd like to introduce the puppies again by name.

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Gryffindoor-We are pretty sure that Joan will be keeping this big boy to show.

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Margot Katrinka-She is supposed to go to a pug-loving friend of ours in New Jersey.

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Argo Kensington-One of these two boys will go to a gay couple that our friend in New Jersey knows, the other is supposed to go to a famiy in Massachusetts, who is a client of our veterinarian friend and fellow pug-owner.

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Waffles: The Movie

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My brother and sister-in-law visited over Labor Day with my 7 month-old niece, Ellie. Waffles, who has an avid fascination with diapers, among other things, went crazy trying to find new ways to get into Ellie's diaper bag. While my brother nicely but firmly tried to scold her, repeatedly saying, "No, Waffles," I found myself just shrugging and saying, "Sorry, guys, there's nothing I can do." I said this while Waffles discovered and mutilated diaper after diaper.
When my brother began looking at me imploringly, I shrugged again, warning. "She cannot be controlled. She will not be contained."
"Sounds like a horror movie slogan," he said, while zipping the diaper bag shut and moving it to an even higher location. A few minutes later, Waffles flew by with yet another diaper.
"She cannot be controlled. She will not be contained," I repeated my mantra, nonchalantly producing the accompanying shrug.
What sounds like the latest horror movie slogan has become a fundamental truth in my life. It seems I am learning to accept it.
What is Waffles learning? Stay tuned. I'll give you an update soon!

A Revolution

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Photo by John Greenwood

I believe I may have started a revolution. They say sometimes it only takes one person to make a difference and I am witnessing this first-hand in our small writers' group at Hubbard Hall. I have already written about how a woman in my group joined the world of pug stalkers by snapping a picture of a car bearing a "pug" license plate because she thought of me. I had shared with our group that pug people are quick to jump out and chase each other down when they see someone walking down the street with a pug and shortly thereafter she was on her way to joining our ranks.
Well, it seems the fire has spread. Last night another member of our writers' project emailed me the above photo. He took the stalking to the next level by literally waiting in a store parking lot for the owner to be out of eyeshot in fear that he would be arrested -- a strange man photographing her car! Notice, however, this fear did not deter him. The Pug Stalking Revolution has only just begun and I am only too proud to have done my part!

Sacred Practice

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Every culture has its own sacred practices especially when it comes to death. Some of these rituals and practices may seem strange, scary or gruesome to outsiders, but to those within the group these are holy rituals, infused with purpose -- they help make sense of life and death, give it order and allow us a way to explain or at least deal with the inexplicable.

Such is the case with Pugdom. Some of the rituals I did not understand 14 years ago when I first arrived to buy my pug Vader and later returned to visit as a friend. If you had told me then that I would be participating in them now, I'm not sure what I would have thought. Perhaps I would have been repulsed or thought it strange. Today, I take part in these understanding that in doing so I am partaking in something holy.

I refer to the death rituals surrounding the pugs. My friend Joan lives on top of a mountain in rural Vermont. Often the pugs die at inconvenient times -- nights, holidays, weekends. So, their bodies must be cared for until they can be taken to the vet. This often means wrapping them in blankets or towels, then plastic Ziploc or garbage bags and placing them in the freezer until they can be buried or taken to the vet. Often times, the bodies are kept until the rest of us -- the friends who have played a role in the pugs' lives -- can arrive to see them. Thus, I got to see Batman's diminutive form this weekend.

I know it may sound peculiar to those who do not love dogs and those removed from rural life, but there is also the practical side to death and the freezer is a place to protect their bodies from decomposition and other animals until a hole can be dug or they can be cremated. And, there is something beautiful in the care Joan takes with these tiny corpses. She has special blue blankets -- "I love  blue," she says, specifically for the deceased. Batman, she had wrapped, in a washcloth-slice of such a blanket. He looked peaceful, untouched, his long black-fur still shiny. He had grown in the time between I last saw him and his death and it seems a cruel joke that he could have been growing and thriving even while his body was betraying him. Lying there in his baby-blue blanket, he was precious as was our love for him.

I will bring a picture of him to Joan -- the last picture taken while he was alive -- like I have been doing for all the dying pugs since I became a part of Pugdom and she will place in the house. This time she will include the name tag Norma created for him nearby. She plans to bury him alongside his sibling that died at childbirth, down the drive near her new house, which we call 3C.

The viewings and the photos help us cope, to honor the pugs that pass. We talk about their lives, which whether they were 14 years or 14 weeks old, all seem incredibly too short. We are bound by love and ritual and respect for powers greater than ourselves. These are profound moments and I no longer find anything unusual in wrapping the body up and placing it in the freezer until we each have seen, until there is a place to bring it. It is after all, this ritual that helps bring new life to the deceased pug -- carrying its spirit from this world and cementing it in our collective heart forever.

Labor Day Dog Days

My friend Joan brought her pug Mister Egg to the gathering on Prickly Mountain yesterday. There we met a couple of dachshunds -- long haired AJ, who was not very cooperative in getting his photo taken, though I managed to sneak a few, and short-haired Hailey. All the dogs gathered around as we ate hotdogs, sausages, fruit, dip and guacamole and enjoyed good conversation and the waning dog days of summer.

The Houses of Prickly Mountain

Here is a sampling of some of the unique looking homes on Prickly Mountain. The friend I visited unfortunately has to sell her beautiful home and is retiring to Florida. She is also a dog lover and had three wonderful dogs at her house yesterday including a long-haired and short-haired dachshund. I will post there pictures later.